Tears Are Falling

The words “Be well” seemed so sad
So tears are already welling up
They fill up in between my eyes
So I try to hide it with my hand

I heard you telling me to be happy
But when I said I couldn't go on without you
You said this is all for me
And I really hated you

Tears are falling – drip drip drip
My smile is disappearing – more and more and more
Because you once lived in my heart that I called love
And you have left me

Rain is falling – drip drip drip
I wonder if the skies know how I feel
I cover my eyes so I won’t hurt more, so I won’t see you anymore

I’m still in the same spot
Because you might turn around and come back
I count the memories one, two, three
As I stand in this place alone

Tears are falling – drip drip drip
My smile is disappearing – more and more and more
Because you once lived in my heart that I called love
And you have left me

Rain is falling – drip drip drip
I wonder if the skies know how I feel
I cover my eyes so I won’t hurt more, so I won’t see you anymore

What is love? What is separation?
Why is it only hurting me?
Making me never able to love again

Tears are falling – drip drip drip
My smile is disappearing – more and more and more
Because you once lived in my heart that I called love
And you have left me

Rain is falling – drip drip drip
I wonder if the skies know how I feel
I cover my eyes so I won’t hurt more, so I won’t see you anymore

                                                                 잘지내란 말이 슬퍼서 

벌써 눈물이 그렁 고인다
눈 틈 새로 가득 차 올라 
손으로 가려본다

행복하란 말이 들려서 
니가 없으면 안 될 거라고 해도
나를 위해 서라고 하는 
너 정말 미워 보인다

떨어진다 눈물이 뚝 뚝 뚝
사라진다 웃음이 점 점 점
사랑이라 부르던 가슴에다 품었던 
니가 나를 떠나서

내려온다 빗물이 뚝 뚝 뚝 
하늘이 내 맘을 아는지
더 아프지 말라고 너를 그만 보라고 
눈을 가려

아직 까지 나는 제 자리 
혹시 뒤돌아 돌아 올 것 같아서
하나 둘 셋 추억을 세며 
이 곳에 홀로 서 있다

떨어진다 눈물이 뚝 뚝 뚝
사라진다 웃음이 점 점 점
사랑이라 부르던 가슴에다 품었던 
니가 나를 떠나서

내려온다 빗물이 뚝 뚝 뚝
하늘이 내 맘을 아는지
더 아프지 말라고 너를 그만 보라고
눈을 가려

사랑이 뭐 길래 이별이 뭐 길래
왜 나를 아프게만 해
이제 두 번 다시는 사랑도 못 하게

떨어진다 눈물이 뚝 뚝 뚝
사라진다 웃음이 점 점 점
사랑이라 부르던 가슴에다 품었던 
니가 나를 떠나서

내려온다 빗물이 뚝 뚝 뚝
하늘이 내 맘을 아는지
더 아프지 말라고 너를 그만 보라고
눈을 가려

Cr Eng Trans: http://www.kpoplyrics.net/wax-tears-are-falling-lyrics-english-romanized.html#ixzz2EHPpeUdB 

Cr Hangul Lyrics: http://www.lyrics.kr/758#.UMCl1-RwrTc 

나쁜 여자

I have this bad habit of reminiscing old days once a while. I called that bad because whenever I think of it, my heart aches. I feel sorry for myself. Sorry for not being able to please other people and they ended up choosing the road they shouldn't have followed. The flow, should I just follow or should I try out one not taken?

Still, I feel sorry for myself.....................

 

Marriage, awkward and food

In a car, conversation goes on like this...

Labmate: When are you getting married?
Me: (Silence)
Labmate: Are you at least planning to get married in few months?
Me: Not too soon
Labmate: Why not? There's no much difference before and after marriage. Life continues as usual with certain changes. In fact, you don't even have to spend a lot, expenditures shall be your husband's responsibility.
Me: Hurm.. There are more than just material. Life after marriage is somewhat completely different from life before marriage. I can't simply go out and meet my friends without his approval. To make it simple, I ain't mentally ready.
Labmate: You'll get used to it anyway
Me: To get used to it, I need a long time. Just like when I try to adjust myself to the lab. How long can you be awkward to your husband?
Labmate: (Laugh)
Me: I'm learning to be an adult so that I can get married. A kid cannot marry a man
Labmate: (Laugh again)
Me: I'm serious
Labmate: Good luck
LOL

Try so hard to avoid all those kind of conversation. That's y I prefer talking to Senior WS and Senior W since they are Chinese so marriage is not their main topic for mere conversation like this. We rather talk about food, and shopping, things like that. Talk about food with me more, I shall be happy!